That being said, I have been waiting for a question to be asked of me...it finally happened today. I am 14 weeks, not far, but far enough. I was asked, "Are you scared this one (the baby) will become diabetic?" Here is my answer:
No. I do not worry about this baby becoming anymore than I think about Noah becoming diabetic. Which in all honesty does not happen very often. I only question it when he is sick or starts to act funny with headaches or tummy aches.
God blesses us in many different and odd ways. Kyli's diabetes has been a blessing to us. While we have our struggles with it and the hospitalizations, I feel that our family has a closer bond from it and a larger understanding for people and kiddos who are different than the average child. We have been given the opportunity to embrace other families going through similar struggles, the kiddos have been able to do activities they would not have been able to if it weren't for Kyli's diabetes, and I have been reminded over and over to be more thankful for my kiddos and the lessons they teach me from it.
IF either of my two other kiddos become diabetic (or both for that matter), they have two steps already in their favor, one they have a teammate to hold their hand and help them build a new path and two, they have parents and family who already know how to handle diabetes in a positive and team playing way to help them out and achieve success daily.
IF it happens, I will still grieve. There are still days that I cry for Kyli, not for what she was given but for the things she will not experience. She will not go another day without some kind of medicine needing to go into her body, finger pokes everyday (at least 10 a day), or to be able to eat something and not worry about how many carbs it has and dose accordingly. Kyli cannot binge eat ever. Eating a large meal can wreak havoc on her sugars, imagine a half gallon of ice cream and some Cheetos, YIKES!!
Here is the thing though, I have two healthy kiddos right now. With of without diabetes, Kyli is HEALTHY! She grows, she eats, she is thriving and most importantly she is spunky and HAPPY! When you see Kyli, you would never know her pancreas is dead and that she requires medicine all day, everyday. She has the most positive outlook, it doesn't stop her and she is proud of who she is, including her diabetes! If we end up with another diabetic, it is in God's hands and we will embrace our path no matter what. I have told others before, maybe Kyli's diagnosis has nothing to do with our family, but for someone we come into contact with on our life journey. I don't question it, I am thankful that my little girl is alive and healthy, not all outcomes are as positive as ours when comes to diabetes.
