The last few weeks have been trying for me. We have had a lot of challenging trials arise at our home, with family, and for our friends. This is one of those times, I start to truly wish I could talk with God so I could try and comprehend even remotely his plan. I know that everything that happens, happens for a reason and while I may not see the purpose there is one. Some of this, I am starting to see when it comes to my family and our home. We have struggled and had sad moments, angry moments, and finally moments of triumph.
My Mom is finally divorced and the house is selling. She is going to be able to start fresh and with the support of her family. We will still struggle, but the support will be there and some ties will finally be broken and no longer able to hurt. My health was cleared! I had to have a biopsy on my left breast due to an unusual lump. While I managed that stress fairly well, it got the best of me after the biopsy while I was waiting for the results. I just could not imagine that battle right now. If I had to, I would of done my best...luckily, God decided that this was not in my cards, at least for now and hopefully never. Kyli's diabetes is becoming more prominent, but I am home and I am able to care for her. I am hoping that with the increasing amount of shots that at our next appointment we can start to discuss a pump for her. While I am really excited about this, it is a whole new approach to diabetes and we will have a lot to learn. Besides all of this, Mike' sister and Mom have a lot of change coming up for them and I wish them the best in their new adventures as well.
I have seen many struggles for our friends, challenges with health for loved little ones, death, sadness, breakups and so much more. This is so hard for me. I wish we were all closer to one another, then we could all just get together and show each other support and give one another comfort. Right now, my words feel so meek, like they cannot make a difference. I am struggling with this. I just want them all to know how much I really love all of them and wish the best for them. Is it bad that all these trials scare me? I am afraid of what is next, but I am trying to be optimistic that it will all be good things. Spring is right around the corner! Which means summer is even closer! Have I mentioned I am not a fan of winter, except for the births of my kiddos happened then. The warm air feels me with warmth.
All these challenges is once again a reminder of how blessed we are and that God is amazing. We may not see Him, but He is gracing us with His presence and love. He is guiding us and helping us to become better people. He is there during our trials and our triumphs. He is my ultimate Father and I need to do my best to remember that He will take care of us and that is the only one with knowledge of our life plan.
So to all my friends and family, I am always thinking about you and you have my love.
